Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Not Sleeping....Wendy is in my thoughts tonight!

It is hard to beleive that Wendy is going to be 27 in just two months! She is all grown up and she is even married. Another mile stone in her life that I was left out of! That is so hard to know that I did not get to be a part her life then. I pray every day that she will soon have the desire to call me and to want to meet me. All through her years of growing up I staying in contact with the agency she was placed through. I sent holiday cards, birthday cards, pictures, letters and some small gifts. Sometimes I think I just sent her too much and that she has no curiosity so she has no need to find me and meet me. It makes me sad to think that way. I so want to be part of her life again. I only had her for the 9 months that I carried her in my body. I just want to be her friend she already has a Mom and a wonderful one at that! I was 27 years old when I was searching for my birth family and I hope that Wendy too will soon be ready to make connection with me. Her Mom has all the info on me that Wendy needs, my address, phone numbers, etc! I have such a desire to see her and hug her and just share so many things with her. Well Ijust continue to lean on God as I wait. A very special Bible verse that gets me through all of this is Proverb 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heartand lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straight."If not for God's help I would never be able to patiently wait for Wendy to be ready! Well I need to get to bed for the night. It is nearly 1:30 in the morning!

Good Night!

1 comment:

Kathi said...

(((Hugs))) for my dear friend Margie. I know how much it hurts not to have contact with Wendy. I hope she chooses to see you soon.