When It Rains It Pours!

The last three weeks have been quite long and not any fun at all. It all started with ten days of bronchitis and two visits to the DR for that. As that passed I ended up in Convenient Care in unbearable pain in my upper abdomen and on my right side. It was after hours so there was no way to get any tests done and it was a Friday of all days! So the DR thougt it was either gall bladder or Kidney stones and ordered an x-ray, urine test and blood work. He then gave me a pain shot and sent me home with directions to call back in morning to see if he could get me set up for an ultrasound. Al called back and I went to the hospital for an ultrasound and the DR also called in a pain pill for me to take the rest fo the weekend. The resualts of the ultra sound was that I had no gall stones but I did have kidney stones. I spent the rest of the weekend on pain pills in la la land and drinking lots of water and juice to try and pass the kidney stones. On Monday the DR ordered a CT scan and that showed very small kidney stones that I could pass n my own. I also went back to Conveninet Care for another shot to help the muscles to relax and help me ass the kidney stones. By Tuesday I felt better but not great I was able to get though the day with no pain pills. That was wonderful I hate the feeling that pain pills give you. I went to see the Uroligist n Wednesday morning. By then feeling much better and assuming I had passed the stones. The Uroligist told me that I had probably already passed the stones since I was pretty much free of pain. He also told me I had both a small and a large cyst on my overay. I called my OB who is also a very good friend. She looked at the CT resaults and asked if I could come in that day for an ultrasound. So I did and as it turns out I have a baseball size cyst on my left overy. It will probably have to be removed surgically. At thie time we are giving it 6 weeks to get smaller. So I will go back in for another ultra sound to see in 6 weeks if it has gotten smaller. If it is the same or bigger I will be set up for it to be removed. Holly my OB will not be doing the surgery as she is to close to us personally but will be assistingin the surgery. So I am feeling much better. Today has been my best day in three weeks!! I do still have some back discomfort and will watch that. If it gets to bad it may be coming from the cyst and in that case I will be getting it removed sonner. So as the saga continues I will keep you posted here! Please remember me in your prayers. Thanks.

A Long Sad Week!

Well we ent to church as we do every Sunday. Just before our Pasto got upo to speak it was announced that we had a tradgity within our church. As it turned out Fred a dentist here was out in Colorado with his family ad on Friday he died suddenly. That was announced and many of us were shocked. He was a health strong man only 37 years old. He left his wife and 3 young children 8, 2 and 5 weeks old. I had the 2 year old in our 1 year old nursery and it was not that long ago that Jack moved up to the 2 year old nursery. Jack is a sweet little boy and he loved to ciuddle and give kisses. He was one of my very favorite kids in that class. I know we are not suupose to have favorites but sometimes you get an extra special kids that attaches to you and that is just what Jack did. Anyway we will miss His Dad Fre deeply. They had moved to Colorado and were there for only one week and then Fred was gone to be with the Lord. The funeral was on Thursday morning and it was quite hard to get through. Marion was so strong and did so well seeing everyone as they come up to speak to her. I know it was so terribly difficult for her. As she told me she has lost her best friend the love of her life! I pray for her now and will continue to pray for her for the weeks and months as they come.

Then on Tuesday we found out about a very good friend of ours whose brother died. He was much older but it was still a sad time. WE went to the visitation and saw our friends. I hugged Lamette and we cried together. This was hard because we are so clost to Bobby and Lanette and we have not seem them in quite a while. I too pray for them and hope to get together more often in the futre with Bobby and Lanette.

I also learned from this tough week. I was sick on Friday and Saturday with a cough and a terrible sore throat and coiuld not talk. So I had lots of time to think. I really need to appriciate my husband and my family. You never know when one fo them might leave this earth. I realized that I take my husband and my children for granted so many times. I really want to work on not doing that. It is also very very importatnt to take lots andlots of pictures. For those pictures will one day be the only memories we have left and they will be treasured more than we can even now at this time.

So as we go into a new week I pray it will be a happier week. Gos bless us all!!!

"Daughter" Wendy

As Many of yo know I have a daughter Wendy that I placed for adoption at her birth. That was a very hard thing for me to do and I have NEVER forgotten her. She is now 26 years old and I have never had contact with her. I have had contact with her adoptive Mom over the last few years. I am sending Wendy a card today. Plain and simple just a thinking of you card. Please pray with me that she will accept this card and know that I am here for her. She got married last year. I just so want to know her and love her again!

A Summer Day With Zachary!

Zach is my "adopted" grandchild. Zach is an energetic little 3 1/2 year old. He is very lovable and a special guy in my life! We spend one or two days a week together. His parents are wonderful loving people also. Zach and I ussually go out to lunch and he loves pizza and Moe's! Here are some pictures of us enjoying the summer together! Enjoy!

Margie, Margie, Margie

It has been an eventful week for me! I started my new job on Monday and quit on Wednesday. I just could not do it. The hours were mights and weekends. I would never get to see Allan! I just was not taking that change at all. I did not want to have to miss church on Suinday's either. I would have only hald one weekend off a month. I just went into melt down mode on Wednesday and knew this was not the job for me. So no operator position for me. Then on Friday I got a call form the city library and have an interviw today at 4:00. I am so very excited. My very first job when I turned 16 was the public library. I also organized and set up a church library a few years ago. So I have some good experience with library work. I am really excited. It is for 30 hours a week every other Saturday and they are not open past 7:00pm during the week. I can handle two Saturdays a month. They are closed on Sundays and Mondays! Well I will let you know how it goes!! :-)

I have a new job!!!

I did it I got the operator job at the Jackson Clinic. I am so excited and so nervous all at the same time. I start on Monday May 19th. I am not sure what my hours will be each week I will have 30 hours a week! I have put a leave of absence in at Birth Chaoice for the time being. It has been a long time since I have worked a 30 an hour a week job. I feel I will need time to adjust to that before I continue counseling at Birth Choice. Anyway please keep me in your prayers on Monday as I begin my training! I will keep you posted on how it goes. My son also got a job at Old Navy and he too is thrilled! God is so good. We may think His timing is too slow sometimes but we also know His timing is operfect!

Just Venting to Myself!!

Today has been a day I just need to vent. I need to get this off my chest. I am so frustrated and so stressed out I a at my whits end. I don't know what to do. Ok, Andrew my 22 yer old son lost his job about 6-8 weeks ago and has not found a new job yet. I realize that is not that long to find a job however he does very little and I mean the bare minimum to find a job. He has no desire to find a job and we (my husband and I), can not seem to find a way to get him to have a desire to find a job. He went to Auto mechanic school for 13 months because he wanted to be a mechanic and got loans and the whole thing. Went through the entire 13 month program for nearly $30,000 in student loans that we nice parents co-signed for! Then he graduates and moves home and gets a mechanic job and he HATES it as well as his boss. Oh my what are we do do. We told Andrew while he was still working to look for another job so he could quit the mechanic job and go to the new job. Well does he do that. Oh no he is too tired to look for a job after work, or there is not enoght time to look for a job I work all day every day of the week, or a number of other excuses till he is one day fired! Well now he has no job!!! So here we go telling him well you really are going to have to find a job. you have a car payment to make of nearly $300 a month and a loan payment of nearly $400 a month and those are only the two bills that we your parents co-signed for you! Your other bills and or credit cards are yous not ours! WEll we do not have the money to make his car payment and his loan payment and all our own bills an payments every month on end for sure. So he has been told he has to apply for 4 jobs every day and he does that for a few days maybe 3 and then he starts doing 3 applications a day. Then the new thing is that on Friday's we don't do app;ications cause places don't want them on Fridays. So we hava a friend remodeling a home and he will pay him a good amount of many an hour to help him with it. We tell Andrew go out three days a week fill out 3 applications and then go work two full days with our friend and a couple of half days so you can help us get your bills paid till you find a job. That worked for one week!!! We are now at this point. Andrew sits on his butt in his bedroom playing some stupid X-BOX game for hours & Hours & hours all day all night! He is adicted!!!!!!! We have had yellomg fights, screaming fights, notes back and forth and it has got to stop. It is going to make me crazy. Right now I do not want to be in my own home. I want to run away and hide. I don't want to hear the game he plays killing and shooting and swearing at everything. It is horrible and I don't feel like I can even invite a friend over to visit. I had my 3 1/2 year old adopted grandson over yesterday for the day. He and I walked back to my bedroom to put him down for a nap and clear as a bell Andrew says "Oh SH__" I was so MAD I almost lost it and told him to turn that lousy game off or stop talkng like that right now. He got much quieter. Anyway I am just ready to fly away. It is getting so old. I do not know why my son at 22 years old does not wantt o go out and get a job. He has no money and we do not give him any money. The only money he gest is the bills we pay for him that we co-signed for. Any other bills he has the collection agencies are after him for. I am so sick of this...........tired...........drained...............and......frustrated. My husband is just as upset as me and we are at a total loss as what to do. We ae now praying MORE and trying to let go and let GOD!!!! I don't know if anyone can even understand this chicken scratch but if you do and have some helpful thoughts feel free to share!!!! I feel like we are being punished cause we co-signed on the car and school loans for him and becaseu he was such a good kid all through his growing up years even through the teen years!! OK sorry I will shut yp now. I pray that God will bring us through this soon. I love yuou Lord and I know you are here and you are in control!